For some time now I have contemplated starting to write a blog. It is an idea I have borrowed from someone very close to my heart.
I have been on the verge of creating one for years, always talking myself in to, and then immediately out of doing so. I have this ridiculous and definitely false kind of snobbery about ‘opening up’ and actually displaying any of my thoughts or opinions. I am always painfully aware that I might appear pretentious and insincere.
I am constantly frightened of being misinterpreted, but at the same time desperate to tell people what I think; even if I don’t always have a concrete or neutral opinion. I never want to upset or offend people, but sometimes I wish I had the honesty to do so (I hope you don’t misinterpret that!).
I have resolved to finally stop; to stop keeping my thoughts to myself, to stop being afraid that people might think differently about me, to stop pretending I am happy being quiet. In doing so, I will hopefully start to let go of some of my ridiculous anxieties about ‘opening up’.
I hope I can borrow some of your time and that you will deem this at least readable. So it begins!